For people with nothing to do
Long time no see.
It's been a year. And what a year it has been. I had to close down the blog due to my (now) ex boyfriend found it. And he wasn't happy about me writing stuff on the internet. So. I had to close it down for a while.
But hey!
I'm back!
And well. Maybe it's time for me to start doing this blogthingy again.
Stuff keep happening to me and I suppose I would amuse some of you.
But hey!
I'm back!
And well. Maybe it's time for me to start doing this blogthingy again.
Stuff keep happening to me and I suppose I would amuse some of you.
xx
I spend to much time on YouTube
For a few days I've been sitting on YouTube a lot.. That can't be good for your health.
I even got a YouTube account..
And thinking about starting to do my own vlogs.. But..
#1 I only have my oh-so-bad webcam. And a 8mpxl camera.
#2 I have no idea how to work with a program that can fix your videos..
#3 My english sucks! I hate my swedish accent. Bah
So.. It wont happen anytime soon.
xxx
I even got a YouTube account..
And thinking about starting to do my own vlogs.. But..
#1 I only have my oh-so-bad webcam. And a 8mpxl camera.
#2 I have no idea how to work with a program that can fix your videos..
#3 My english sucks! I hate my swedish accent. Bah
So.. It wont happen anytime soon.
xxx
It's half past one in the middle of the night..
.. and I'm awake..
Found this old picture of my little sister and my grandmothers dog Chicko.
Rebecca is now 15 years old and Chicko is no longer among us.
I'm going to try to locate my CD-backups where I've putted all my old pictures..
Couldn't find them on the computer.. Sadly.
I'm trying to clean out my computer at the moment. Going to install Windows 7.
So right now I'm moving all my stuff to my external harddrive.
Had plenty of trouble with my movies since a bunch of them are .img files and quite big
and my external harddrive can't deal with files that are over 4 gigabytes. So thats the reason why I'm
up this late. I'm waiting for the last film (on my own harddrive D:, I haven't even touched C: yet.. ) to finish..
I had to turn them into several Rar files instead to be able to move them. And one movie takes around one and a half hour. So I'm having lots of fun.. Yeah.. Or not..
I'm thinking about going to bed anyway since I'm planning on going to the gym tomorrow and run on a treadmill
for a while. I just need to move some great music to my Mp3-player then I'm good to go.
I don't know why. I haven't been working out and stuff since spring. I've been injured alot, and I still am.
My back still isn't OK but fuck that.. I want to get fit again. Last monday I went working out with Sanna
(the best Personal Trainer and friend ever!) and on wednesday we went spinning...
At 6:45 in the morning... Zzzz.. But we are doing it again this week. And tomorrow I WILL go to
the gym by myself for the first time ever and do you want to know the fun part?
I've been longing for it.
I wanted to go to the gym last friday but I had to work 7-18.45 so that was pretty fucked.
And then I worked saturday and sunday so tomorrow I can finally go.
Me, the laziest person ever wants to go to the gym..
I think hell froze to ice..
Hm.. I think I have to clean up this blog tomorrow.. I need to get a category for the YouTube-videos..
A new header perhaps? hmm.. We'll see.
But now.. I'm giving up.
I'm going to bed.. Sleep tight everyone.
xxx
Feel free to correct me if I've spelled anything wrong, just click "Kommentarer" and you can post a comment
Found this old picture of my little sister and my grandmothers dog Chicko.
Rebecca is now 15 years old and Chicko is no longer among us.
I'm going to try to locate my CD-backups where I've putted all my old pictures..
Couldn't find them on the computer.. Sadly.
I'm trying to clean out my computer at the moment. Going to install Windows 7.
So right now I'm moving all my stuff to my external harddrive.
Had plenty of trouble with my movies since a bunch of them are .img files and quite big
and my external harddrive can't deal with files that are over 4 gigabytes. So thats the reason why I'm
up this late. I'm waiting for the last film (on my own harddrive D:, I haven't even touched C: yet.. ) to finish..
I had to turn them into several Rar files instead to be able to move them. And one movie takes around one and a half hour. So I'm having lots of fun.. Yeah.. Or not..
I'm thinking about going to bed anyway since I'm planning on going to the gym tomorrow and run on a treadmill
for a while. I just need to move some great music to my Mp3-player then I'm good to go.
I don't know why. I haven't been working out and stuff since spring. I've been injured alot, and I still am.
My back still isn't OK but fuck that.. I want to get fit again. Last monday I went working out with Sanna
(the best Personal Trainer and friend ever!) and on wednesday we went spinning...
At 6:45 in the morning... Zzzz.. But we are doing it again this week. And tomorrow I WILL go to
the gym by myself for the first time ever and do you want to know the fun part?
I've been longing for it.
I wanted to go to the gym last friday but I had to work 7-18.45 so that was pretty fucked.
And then I worked saturday and sunday so tomorrow I can finally go.
Me, the laziest person ever wants to go to the gym..
I think hell froze to ice..
Hm.. I think I have to clean up this blog tomorrow.. I need to get a category for the YouTube-videos..
A new header perhaps? hmm.. We'll see.
But now.. I'm giving up.
I'm going to bed.. Sleep tight everyone.
xxx
Feel free to correct me if I've spelled anything wrong, just click "Kommentarer" and you can post a comment
Fear
Found these words on PRS (Penn state paranormal reasearch society) webpage: http://www.pennstateprs.com
"I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
- Frank Herbert, author
This is the way I deal with my fear. I was afraid of crossing roads and being on the road ( don't know why ), so I got my drivers license. I hate deep water and being in the water when I can't see the bottom, so I'm going to get a diving license when I have the money and the time.
I try to confront my fears when I feel that I'm ready. I have fears that I haven't confronted and I don't feel that I'm ready.. yet.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
- Frank Herbert, author
This is the way I deal with my fear. I was afraid of crossing roads and being on the road ( don't know why ), so I got my drivers license. I hate deep water and being in the water when I can't see the bottom, so I'm going to get a diving license when I have the money and the time.
I try to confront my fears when I feel that I'm ready. I have fears that I haven't confronted and I don't feel that I'm ready.. yet.
Paranormal state. Part two
I suppose I got a bit carried away with part one. I never got around to why I wasn't a beliver. So let's start over.
I do think that there is stuff that science can't explain. Because some stuff science can't explain! Mothman for example, too many people saw this thing, too many people who didn't know eachother. And when science stands handfallen, what else to belive in?
Yes, I think that there is something out in the woods that looks at us from a safe distance. I don't know what it is, vampires? Werewolfs? Pixies? Trolls? Goblins? I don't know, but I'm sure there is something thats watching us. Cuz I can feel they watching me when sometimes.
But like I said, I don't know if I do, or want to, belive in ghosts and demons. I suppose it scares me to much. And if I belive, they will become real. And if they become real it will scare the hell out off me! Thats why it's better for me "not" believing.
Sure I want to belive, but a part of me just don't want to, because it's to scary. Arghh.. This is just hard to explain.
Well. If you want to talk to me about it, just send me an e-mail : [email protected]
Btw. the stuff about Ryan Buell? Thats still true. ^^
Yeah I'm a peculiar girl. But why be like everyone else when you can be yourself?
Perhaps I should write about myself, introduce myself to my (right now non-existing) readers. Yeah I'll do that. Read that one instead!
Paranormal state. Part one
Katrina, Heather, Eilfie, Sergey and Ryan
Paranormal State
Paranormal State
Around a week ago I discovered a program called Paranormal State that runs on channel five here in Sweden. I'm not a true beliver. I do think that there is stuff that science can't explain. I do belive that there is stuff in the woods thats looking at us from a safe distanse. I'm just not sure if I do, or want to, belive in ghosts and demons.
Spirits? Yeah, I think there is stuff that watches over us.
Both of my grandfathers is dead and I know that atleast one of my gradfathers is watching over me. I can hardly remember my dads father beside when he was in the hospice. But I remember my mums dad more. I remember playing with him even thou I was very young. I remember that he was a warm, light person and I think that he's the one thats watching over me. Since I was very young when he died I never had.. time.. really.. to grief. I was to young to go to the funeral but I have stuff that I've gotten from him, a Liseberg rabbit and a porcelain pig. Thats stuff that I relate to him. And when I was around fifteen I was cleaning in my room and I found something, I can't remember what it was, but I started thinking about him and I cried. I cried and I cried. I think that was my griefing point.
Hmm. Where were I. Yeah. I'm not sure if I do, or want to, belive in ghosts and demons. I have never experienced anything paranormal except one unexplained feeling I had like ten years ago. My boyfriend laughed it off and said that everyone has somewhere where they feel scared. He was scared when he had to go down into the basment when he was young. I too had a place where I was scared. I wasn't the only one feeling scared there. The place is a playground between my parents house and my bestfriends parents house. My best friend hated walking over it alone so I had to follow her, and then I ran home. I always ran home from her, sometimes she followed me to the end of her road but she never wanted to follow me onto the playground. One evening I was running home as usual, but as soon as I entered the playground it felt like someone or something was following me. I never saw anyone, It just felt like something where right beside my neck and I ran, I don't think I've ever been running so fast, neither before nor after. It scared me shitless. I can still feel the panic I felt when I was running. Still I don't know why I was so scared or what I ran from.
Perhaps thats why I don't want to belive in ghosts and demons. Because if I belive, then what was it that scared me?
Ofcourse the playground always have scared me. I had nightmares about it when I was little and the last nightmare I remember involved my littlesister, who was a baby then. So I suppose I had the nightmares until I was around ten? But the whole point of this endless text is that I was always scared when I crossed that playground, but only that scared once.
So why do I watch paranormal state? Even thou it scares the shit out of me? Even thou I can't sleep when I've been watching it?
I honestly don't know. I find it interesting. I enjoy hearing about paranormal stuff even thou it scares me. I hate not knowing. I think that I, just like Ryan Buell in Paranormal State, want to find answers. It's just that I'm such a coward. I don't want to run around looking for ghosts. I think I will stay this way. I think that the more I watch these kind of shows and read about stuff I open up more and I don't want that. I like being closed and not being capable to drawn ghosts and other stuff since I'm not open towards them.
Since I've been having trouble sleeping when I watch this show I've been thinkin about reading about closing my chakras. And after last night when I hardly got any sleep I've finally started reading about where the chakras are so I can close myself completely.
Everyone has seven chakras. I'm going to try to translate them, but I will leave the swedish sentence below.
The rootchakra: Is located within the tail vertebra (thats my own translation, some words is harder to translate)
Rotchakrat: Sitter innanför svanskotan
The stomachchakra: Located below the belly
Magchakrat: Sitter strax under naveln
Solarplexus: Located where the ribs join above the belly
Solarplexus: Sitter där revbenen går ihop ovanför buken
The heartchakra: In the middle of the chest
Hjärtchakrat: Sitter mitt på bröstet
The neckchakra: Located in the "fossa jugularis". The "cavity" right under the front of the neck.
Halschakrat: Sitter i halsgropen
Third eye: In the middle of the forhead
Tredje Ögat: Sitter Mitt i pannan
The crownchakra: On the top of the head. (This one you can never close completely)
Kronchakrat: Sitter mitt uppå huvudet
If this works? Don't know. But I will really put it up for a test tonight since I've downloaded Paranormal State Season 1 and watched it today. So if I have trouble sleeping tonight, I will test this thing with the chakras and see if I will feel safer afterwards.
If you haven't looked at Paranormal State, do it. I know some people aren't belivers and laughs at this sort of stuff ( like my boyfriend ), and I know that some people are like me, curious and wanting to know more.
I'm just one of those who don't seek to find. I'm comfortable right here. I think that if I ever see anything it will give me a heartattack. Seriously.
I would love to talk to Ryan Buell. He seem to be a nice and funny person. I like that kind of people. And the more I read about him ( Ryan Buells blog ) the more interested I become. No, not in THAT way. Just knowing him would be interesting. Perhaps just to balance my boring life.
So. If you ever read this Ryan Buell, send me a comment on where to contact you, and lets laugh together. And I need to practise on my english anyway. :) Hm. I think i kinda sidetracked with this last part.. Humm.. Well. I suppose I've said everything I wanted to say soo..
To get in touch with me e-mail: [email protected] or leave a comment (and somewhere where I can reply to)
From time to time I will write stuff in english, and if you want to read everything I've been writing in english then look for "totally english" on the right side, press it and voilá! Everything I ever writed in english on this blog. And please don't roll me in tar and feathers for my bad english. If I write anything that isn't right, please tell me so I can correct it. I'm a swedish girl, living in sweden, I graduated from highschool four years ago and don't have so many chances to work on my english anymore. So it sucks. I know. Teach me instead of mocking me. Help me instead of laughing at me. Please?
Since I've been having trouble sleeping when I watch this show I've been thinkin about reading about closing my chakras. And after last night when I hardly got any sleep I've finally started reading about where the chakras are so I can close myself completely.
Everyone has seven chakras. I'm going to try to translate them, but I will leave the swedish sentence below.
The rootchakra: Is located within the tail vertebra (thats my own translation, some words is harder to translate)
Rotchakrat: Sitter innanför svanskotan
The stomachchakra: Located below the belly
Magchakrat: Sitter strax under naveln
Solarplexus: Located where the ribs join above the belly
Solarplexus: Sitter där revbenen går ihop ovanför buken
The heartchakra: In the middle of the chest
Hjärtchakrat: Sitter mitt på bröstet
The neckchakra: Located in the "fossa jugularis". The "cavity" right under the front of the neck.
Halschakrat: Sitter i halsgropen
Third eye: In the middle of the forhead
Tredje Ögat: Sitter Mitt i pannan
The crownchakra: On the top of the head. (This one you can never close completely)
Kronchakrat: Sitter mitt uppå huvudet
If this works? Don't know. But I will really put it up for a test tonight since I've downloaded Paranormal State Season 1 and watched it today. So if I have trouble sleeping tonight, I will test this thing with the chakras and see if I will feel safer afterwards.
If you haven't looked at Paranormal State, do it. I know some people aren't belivers and laughs at this sort of stuff ( like my boyfriend ), and I know that some people are like me, curious and wanting to know more.
I'm just one of those who don't seek to find. I'm comfortable right here. I think that if I ever see anything it will give me a heartattack. Seriously.
I would love to talk to Ryan Buell. He seem to be a nice and funny person. I like that kind of people. And the more I read about him ( Ryan Buells blog ) the more interested I become. No, not in THAT way. Just knowing him would be interesting. Perhaps just to balance my boring life.
So. If you ever read this Ryan Buell, send me a comment on where to contact you, and lets laugh together. And I need to practise on my english anyway. :) Hm. I think i kinda sidetracked with this last part.. Humm.. Well. I suppose I've said everything I wanted to say soo..
Ciao!
To get in touch with me e-mail: [email protected] or leave a comment (and somewhere where I can reply to)
From time to time I will write stuff in english, and if you want to read everything I've been writing in english then look for "totally english" on the right side, press it and voilá! Everything I ever writed in english on this blog. And please don't roll me in tar and feathers for my bad english. If I write anything that isn't right, please tell me so I can correct it. I'm a swedish girl, living in sweden, I graduated from highschool four years ago and don't have so many chances to work on my english anymore. So it sucks. I know. Teach me instead of mocking me. Help me instead of laughing at me. Please?
